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Honor Roller
04:06
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You and I, tiptoeing
fragile lines
At the edges of their blurring vision
And once or twice,
falling to too many times,
been the victims of their aging derision
Stare at the floor? Or Dorothy's face:
jumping through stages to grab that award
Step out the door? Onto a new page:
following nothing but the beat of my heart !!
We're on a roll, yeah!
Killing Honor Roll, yeah!
And you and I will keep on laughing
at the fakers and their habits
and the root of their force-fed fear!
(( 'cuz you and I both know that we don't need the gold™ ))
Took some time until
we got it right,
On the way to our greatest creation
And telltale sighs,
the pity in their eyes,
Will not do anything to change my decision!
Living the best of us throughout the years
Living the life we chose through all our tears
Loving the worst of us despite our fears
Loving the life we chose we'll always be
'cuz you and I both know that we don't need the gold™
if it means wishing you could be here ☆
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2. |
Maturity
03:22
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this is a night for bad decisions
your silence speaks louder over smoke
we can't go back to where we used to be
but maybe life could get better
maybe that's all we're meant to be?
"pretty and lonely people"
all I wanna do is be alone
just with the right people
got it twirled 'round your hair and your hands tied, somewhere there in the canvas where the paint dried: beautiful, catatonic — but they all lied.
hey, have you made the right decision?
you're at the mirror, trying not to choke
you're far away from where you used to be
but maybe life could get better,
in little strokes
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3. |
Circles
04:38
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It's been a long thought process cycling through my head
It's been a long time coming, and I think that it needs to be said
And what I can't understand is:
If we both just learned to play the game along the way?
Did we learn to keep to ourselves and keep our mouths shut
'cuz we thought we couldn't win?
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Can we go back?
Should we go back?
Where do I begin?
Can we go back?
Should we go back
to where we could've been?
And you know pride and emotions are really just not our thing.
Thought I had to learn to be honest, but in the end I realize:
You just don't want me in.
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It's been a few short hours since you got into bed
If you look out the window, you and I will both watch the sun set
And I know if we keep going down this road, we'll drive right off the end:
Where we learn to keep to ourselves
and keep our mouths shut as we learn to be content.
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Can we go back?
Should we go back?
Where do I begin?
Can we go back?
Should we go back
to where we could've been?
And you know pride and emotions are really just not our thing.
Thought you had to learn to be honest, but in the end I realize:
It's hard to let you in.
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[ Are we gonna get through this, or no? ]
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Can we go back?
Should we go back?
Where do I begin?
Can we go back?
Should we go back
to where we could've been?
And you know pride and emotions are really just not our thing.
But we've gotta learn to be honest, and in the end I realize:
We've got to let us win.
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4. |
Sincerity
02:50
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Your trend killed individuality
Your kind killed sincerity
What if I told you? What if I? What if I?
You’re part of a cookie cutter generation:
Masks up, full of pretension
You canonize your introversion
and vainglorious depreciation?
You fetishize what is authentic!
“Depression saves what isn’t worth it.”
Consumerizing your A E S T H E T I C
Othering is your P A N D E M I C
Rigor mortis heartbeats all in time with your tune--
God, please tell me it’ll all end soon,
because I’d rather sleep than listen to bullshit like this
Your trend killed individuality
Your kind killed sincerity
Your kind killed me
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5. |
Leave
01:34
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trol)ifyoutrulylovemeasyousaygivemethespa
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donotneed"checkups"idonotneedyoutotellm
ethatyouthinkihavegrownorthatiamstagnant
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rentiamfromwhoiwaswheniwokeupyouarenei
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udonotknowhowmuchi'vestruggledtobewhoi
wanttobe,tobewhoiameverysingleday,tolove
whoiwanttomakethechoicesiwantformeyoud
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etriumphwhenicanstandupformyselfwhenica
nbetruetomeidonotneedyoutomakeexcusesf
ormeidonotneedyoutomakelabelsformeidon
otneedyoutomoldmeintoanimagethatfitsyour
understandingidonotneedyourdisappointme
ntyourdisdainyourdisapprovalwhenigoagains
tthatunderstanding
LEAVE ME ALONE
I just want to be.
........................
i don't appreciate that you love me
in the ways that you think i need
i don't appreciate that you love me
for selfish reasons
i don't appreciate that you love a memory
if you wanted me to stay then you should've let me change
i did not feel like crying when you told me to cry
it did not make me feel better when you told me i was better
it does not make me happy when you hate in my name
it does not make me happy when you turn me into my name
i appreciate that you love me
in the ways that you can
but you do not know my true happiness
so if you love me, don't pretend
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6. |
At Year End
03:45
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drove down those streets that night
calm in the back of my mind
[ Looking for those lights, looking for that life. ]
your voices in my ear,
my Periphery returns to me
In a place where it’s alright to disappear for a while
[ Looking for those lights, looking for that life. ]
where I will be
no one will see
periphery
returns to me
where I will be
no one will see
just let me be
In a place where it’s alright to disappear for a while, I’ll go home to you.
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Genjitsu Stargazing Society Manila, Philippines
Queer-run, queer-focused cassette label and community. The universe is ours. Fuck your transphobia, homophobia, misogyny, and toxic machismo.
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